something random

whenever talk about death,, it has always been a sad story. definitely yes.,

some poeple are scared to die, and some people are not...
there's always questions such as, what will happen after death?is there any hell or heaven? will i be in hell? and blah blah blah

well for myself, honestly i always feel ready when the time is come, or even somehow i always feel i will leave this world earlier (God Forbid)...
then again i still want to do a lot of things...a lot a lot a lot things to do...i havent done anything to make my parents proud, i still want to travel around the world, i really want spend the rest of my days with my husband...i still want to have a baby, grow old with them, attend their wedding,,, and that,,,and this,,, and so on..... i don't want to leave this world so soon...

the question is we never know when the time is come.... we never know..

since i was young, i always know life is unpredictable..everything can happen in a day even in one hour..therefore, it become my life lesson..that i always do and live with the memory of life is short. i grow up with that believe, so i do it. i always do whatever i want, of course not in a negative way, i still don't go clubbing, drugs, smoke or even do such a teenage thing. i try to say thank u and sorry everytime i feel to... i always try think positive (of course i fail many times)...and live happily cos we never know what happened tomorrow...

i was reminded everytime i watch any "sci-fi" movies talking about disaster, the end of the world, etc....some people doesn't take any credit from it, while i do...i always believe one day it will happened to us... i might sound cliche and so pathetic.. but it makes me live gratefully and happily...

let's make it real, have u ever thought how many person u know well left u unexpectedly?

i've been in sydney just for 2 years 2 months, but some people i know well left me sooner than i thought.

i never think about being die, but the more i know the reality, the more upset i am... yes, i told u before i am not really scared to die, but the truth is i'm scared being left even more...

it was the second month in sydney, my Grandma left us...it was a bit shock for me, cos i think 2 weeks before that, i still talked with her in phone, yet clearly in my mind my promise to bring her here.. ans she left us... i can say i was close to her, i met her every 2-3 times in a week, and i love her... i love both of my grandma (my other grandma passed away 2 years before i came here), and i could not get any love from grandma,,

around March 2009, one of my uni friend had accident and she left us all.. she was 23, and young and bright, full of hopes for future, and nobody will ever know she would die so young. i remember a week before the accident happened, we were chatting on msn, and she mentioned how she wanted to go overseas for study english, asked me about australia's life and how was i going here? when i memorize back, we were close before in the first year at uni, even til i graduated we were still in the same class. just can't believe that day she passed away,,, life is short...

just last april, the person i reckon very kind, passed away. he is my work amte in kindergarten. he passed away because he was sick, in his 30s, he hasnt got married, he's vegetarian, active in buddhist society, he's been teaching kids for more than 6 years and he is really good person. then again i wonder, why good people passes away faster than the other.. again, life is unpredictable,,,

and the last news i got was one of my high school classmate passed away. again, i feel like i was knocked...he was 25, single, he was very calm and good friend in my memory.. but why that happened to him...

those are some of people i know well..they passed away in different way. what can i learn from this are

life is short, so why dont we live happily, live honestly,do good while u can, do whatever u like (but dont kill people, lol)...live and say what u wanna say...

simple isnt it? thats the theory, the fact is not all people can do it.. some people make this life more complicated by their mind....i am not suggesting u to do that, we have to control our mind, be happy and be grateful that we at least still get a time to do something....

i always remind my sis about this, over and over again,,that dont regret anything..have ur life fun, cos money is not everything..hahaha...

and for sure i will always live happily and do anything i can...

and i believe we all can do it...

be happy....