Simply "Fate"

I'm counting the days to my D day,,,, FYI, i am going back soon to my country and i am having a wedding reception, exactly 10 more days from today... so here am i,,, counting the days,,,

lots of my friends in Jakarta are questioning my wedding news..well, i hope in a good way,,, not much of them know exactly how my love story is... i cant blame them, when they were like " aaah,awei how come she get married so quick, or long time not hear from u and suddenly i got ur wedding news, and so on and so on"...

even my best friends backhome are wondering how could "an awei" end up so young to marriage life? well, i can't blame them for being sarcastic, assuming i was not so "ready to get married type of person"...

ok guys, i am not here trying to explain or expose my love life...
i am ok with such lots of question from them... the thing is they are my friends and i do believe they are happy for me as i do.. and it makes sense when they are thousand miles away from me.... i don't expect we always contact each other and know what's new about them..

however, i do want to tell a bit of my happiness news for them..and im proudly say i am getting married (in fact i am already legally)... and I'm very happy...

i believe most of my friends still remember the old me, a young girl who talk less about love, marriage and having a baby... that's true... i admit it... i've never pictured myself tying a knot before 28, not until i met my husband...

i reckon myself not a corny type .. i prefer to be cool talking about love.. i never believe any true love before, however i believe on "fate"....neither me or my husband would ever think about both of us meet, fall in love and now we promise to each other in the name of love..

Answering those questions above (how come i get married fast), i would say : i think this is what they called "love and fate".
and eventually people will ask how do u know he is ur mr right, or he is the one..? then my answers are: i know it's theory and non-sense but u can feel it one day when u meet "the one". for no reason u have a strong connection,and u feel u know him before u meet him,,, u just know the day when he asks u to marry him, u will say "yes", cos u can picture urself spending the rest of ur life with him... there will be no doubt, no regret and that's what i feel...

my husband and i met early of 2010. somehow we just know we are meant to be each other. everything seems so right and perfect. my life's never been better..i never thought i would met my soulmates in sydney, never.. but i did,, he is my bestfriend, my partner, my husband, my lovers and my life..

i know it sounds so bullshit or it just me... well, u can assume that,,,its ok how people think about it,, cos i believe everyone has different story how to find their love... but mine, pretty much more like fairytale...when the time and fate comes to us, here we are,, in a real world,,

most of indo's chinese or even chinese background, they decide to get married after having more than a year (even have to be more than 2 years).. sounds like it is a rule, if u don't follow the rule, society will wonder, is the girl pregnant? or aaah they will get divorce soon cos they get married in early age, and blah, blah... are u agree? i know u are agree, cos i did when i was in Indo...

yet, nothing wrong with the rule... since that is the only reason for people of getting married, knowing each other well, and so they get married. But then again, do u know so many couples get married cos they assume they have been in relationship for so long, so marriage is the only reason to be an excuse. marriage is a must. or even have u ever heard couples have been in 5-12 years relationship and they broke up, eventually they meet new partner and decice to get married in less than a year. well people, THAT's TRUE... that's what i called FATE....

of course i am not questioning those of couples who's been in relationship for ages and they are now married. hey, i am truely happy with it, i really do. cos i know they are meant to be since they just started the relationship. i can tell they are perfect for each other by witnessing their love....

what i'm trying to say are..we never know when and why we fall in love, when we will meet our MR. right or when we will get married. for me i always believe FATE... and time is not a problem.. how long u guys been together is not a serious matter. the thing is, how they love each other and trust each other...

i have some friends whose haven't met "the one" and i know deep in their heart, they are worried.. but i always believe they will one day.. its just the matter of time... and when the time has come, bam, they will never be separated....

or eventhough, they can't find theirs, what's wrong with being single.. as long as u happy...who cares,,,,?? one of my friend admitted she is lots happier being single rather than in relationship...

i think i sounds so grumpy and try to convince everyone with my opinion,, ups... im sorry about that... not i wanted too...

to sum up, i share a bit opinion here cos i just want my friends to be happy.. that, one day when the d day comes to them. they will proudly say "i am a happy and lucky bride or groom" like i do....

happy wedding to all my friends who already got one and will have one sooner.... i love u all,, and i believe u guys will be live happily ever after...

i want them to know that i am happy now, i finally found mine, and i do wish everyone will find theirs...

do u know what is ur dream?

i guess all of us have been questioning these question over and over again? what is my dream? what do i want to do? what do i like? what will my future be?? what should i do at the moment? and what the fuck am i doing here now??

well, bang...!!! everyone does it,,, me either,, and i'm in the crossroad thinking what will i do for next year....

I am a type of person who always plan and know what to do in this life.. cos i know life is beautiful and i dont want to waste my time too much for doing nothing... i pretty much always got what i want (with lots of effort and pray of course), and by the end of the year i like to make new year resolution, though sometimes i forgot what was it....

it's december now... less than a month to year 2011..
have u think about what will u do and what is ur plan for 2011???

what have u done in 2010?
are u happy with that?
have u done what u want in 2010?
have u made yourself and people surround u proud of u??

those question.. this question... aaarghh dont u think its annoying question...???? screw me...

but then again, hey.. there's nothing wrong with that... that makes u learn to be better person next year..

let me think of myself..... about 2010...

2010 is the best year for me (definitely i can say).. i graduated my master this year. I met my husband and get married.. i'd been on holiday for a month with my families and friends. i got new job and got new company experience.... and a lot of good things.. however, i lost couple of friends this year...>.<

that's mine and how about urs???pls carefully think about it..

whatever is mine or urs.. remember, that is part of our life and whether its good or bad.. life still goes on....

at the moment all that i can think are (excitedly and nervously), my wedding reception (which is in the next 15 days..) and my christmas plan.... u know as a bride u will feel nervous and worry of this and that... i do.. and so many things to think... yet i know it will flow smooth ( thanks to my husband for understanding me a lot... )

so what am i going to do on JANUARY??

here i am, i can't picture it enough... what job should i do??
FYI, i studied accounting (stupid master title) and communication. i've been doing different field of job since i was 20.. list are teacher, media relation, restaurant job, cafe job and office job..

teaching and kids were definitely my life,,,
working in media was halfly not in to me,,, (say no to working late and smokes everywhere,,,)
restaurant and cafe job are fun, (i like it, but hey.. i have 2 stupid titles on me)...
and office job,it was soo soo sooooo not me... (spending all ur time facing computers and files and papers..???!!!???!!??? get me out of here..)

so.. what should i do?
i want to do child care but i don't have certificate or any background...(FYI, every job has to be related to educational background)...
should i go for office job?? accounting job like my parents wish me to??? or maybe i should give it a try for years, who knows i can be good for that...(but i dont waaant)

then what? what do u want AWEI????????????????????

heaps of my friends have a better job than me, and some of them are succeed, their business is good or they get promotion..
well, it doesnt matter to me, cos indeed i envy even more to those friends who love their job and they feel good at... success is an extra...

i have a friend,, he is so popular and succeed, rich i think, and the thing is, this job is his life. he loves his job so much, he finds what he wants to do.. and i am so proud of him...
that's what i'm talking.. can i be like him.. i find what i want, and i will love it...

on the other hand, i have some friends who "has to do that job", cos their education background. yes, they are getting enough money, promotion, but they are not happy.

well..again.. my mum expects me to work in office, as an accountant, get so much money, and good reputation (in our culture, office job esp accounting is highly expected for elders).. does she ever think about my truly feelings? then again, i can't blame her, somehow she is always right, she forced me to learn chinese and english since i was young (i always hate it), and now i got so many easy things in returns... and i have to thank her..

what she tried to say is, u can't always follow what u want, sometimes u have to force urself, even u hate it, for ur good sake one day,,, she used her friend as her example, yes her friend admit it she didnt even like her job at the begining, eventually she is now getting higher and higher and she is used to it, so she is happy.

on the other hand, my friend was studying computer and accounting.. she knew it's not her life, she threw everything she had and studied from zero what she likes, and now she is so popular and succeed (through very long way), and the thing is SHE IS HAPPY....

having those versions, which one should i choose.... i am in the crossroads and i have limited times (i'm 26 next year, cmon im old)...

what is my dream,,,?? I still dont know...

All i know is i love kids, i love humanity service, i love to interact with people and i love travelling...
is there any job including all my criterias....

i haven't found it yet.. not now, maybe next year...

whatever my job will be.... one thing i should know... i have to be happy... and i live with that,,, i live from happiness, people's happiness.. when i see people happy, i am happy. my dream is simply just bring happiness to people..


so..have u found what is urs???? whatever it is,, u will be happy and good at it..... keep looking and keep working......

jiayouuuuuuuuu.. be happy!!!!!!!!!!