do u know what is ur dream?

i guess all of us have been questioning these question over and over again? what is my dream? what do i want to do? what do i like? what will my future be?? what should i do at the moment? and what the fuck am i doing here now??

well, bang...!!! everyone does it,,, me either,, and i'm in the crossroad thinking what will i do for next year....

I am a type of person who always plan and know what to do in this life.. cos i know life is beautiful and i dont want to waste my time too much for doing nothing... i pretty much always got what i want (with lots of effort and pray of course), and by the end of the year i like to make new year resolution, though sometimes i forgot what was it....

it's december now... less than a month to year 2011..
have u think about what will u do and what is ur plan for 2011???

what have u done in 2010?
are u happy with that?
have u done what u want in 2010?
have u made yourself and people surround u proud of u??

those question.. this question... aaarghh dont u think its annoying question...???? screw me...

but then again, hey.. there's nothing wrong with that... that makes u learn to be better person next year..

let me think of myself..... about 2010...

2010 is the best year for me (definitely i can say).. i graduated my master this year. I met my husband and get married.. i'd been on holiday for a month with my families and friends. i got new job and got new company experience.... and a lot of good things.. however, i lost couple of friends this year...>.<

that's mine and how about urs???pls carefully think about it..

whatever is mine or urs.. remember, that is part of our life and whether its good or bad.. life still goes on....

at the moment all that i can think are (excitedly and nervously), my wedding reception (which is in the next 15 days..) and my christmas plan.... u know as a bride u will feel nervous and worry of this and that... i do.. and so many things to think... yet i know it will flow smooth ( thanks to my husband for understanding me a lot... )

so what am i going to do on JANUARY??

here i am, i can't picture it enough... what job should i do??
FYI, i studied accounting (stupid master title) and communication. i've been doing different field of job since i was 20.. list are teacher, media relation, restaurant job, cafe job and office job..

teaching and kids were definitely my life,,,
working in media was halfly not in to me,,, (say no to working late and smokes everywhere,,,)
restaurant and cafe job are fun, (i like it, but hey.. i have 2 stupid titles on me)...
and office job,it was soo soo sooooo not me... (spending all ur time facing computers and files and papers..???!!!???!!??? get me out of here..)

so.. what should i do?
i want to do child care but i don't have certificate or any background...(FYI, every job has to be related to educational background)...
should i go for office job?? accounting job like my parents wish me to??? or maybe i should give it a try for years, who knows i can be good for that...(but i dont waaant)

then what? what do u want AWEI????????????????????

heaps of my friends have a better job than me, and some of them are succeed, their business is good or they get promotion..
well, it doesnt matter to me, cos indeed i envy even more to those friends who love their job and they feel good at... success is an extra...

i have a friend,, he is so popular and succeed, rich i think, and the thing is, this job is his life. he loves his job so much, he finds what he wants to do.. and i am so proud of him...
that's what i'm talking.. can i be like him.. i find what i want, and i will love it...

on the other hand, i have some friends who "has to do that job", cos their education background. yes, they are getting enough money, promotion, but they are not happy.

well..again.. my mum expects me to work in office, as an accountant, get so much money, and good reputation (in our culture, office job esp accounting is highly expected for elders).. does she ever think about my truly feelings? then again, i can't blame her, somehow she is always right, she forced me to learn chinese and english since i was young (i always hate it), and now i got so many easy things in returns... and i have to thank her..

what she tried to say is, u can't always follow what u want, sometimes u have to force urself, even u hate it, for ur good sake one day,,, she used her friend as her example, yes her friend admit it she didnt even like her job at the begining, eventually she is now getting higher and higher and she is used to it, so she is happy.

on the other hand, my friend was studying computer and accounting.. she knew it's not her life, she threw everything she had and studied from zero what she likes, and now she is so popular and succeed (through very long way), and the thing is SHE IS HAPPY....

having those versions, which one should i choose.... i am in the crossroads and i have limited times (i'm 26 next year, cmon im old)...

what is my dream,,,?? I still dont know...

All i know is i love kids, i love humanity service, i love to interact with people and i love travelling...
is there any job including all my criterias....

i haven't found it yet.. not now, maybe next year...

whatever my job will be.... one thing i should know... i have to be happy... and i live with that,,, i live from happiness, people's happiness.. when i see people happy, i am happy. my dream is simply just bring happiness to people..


so..have u found what is urs???? whatever it is,, u will be happy and good at it..... keep looking and keep working......

jiayouuuuuuuuu.. be happy!!!!!!!!!!