There is nothing i can say but sincerely thank you to lenz, as she gives me a motivation just after i read her blog about me.
I always think my name or even myself has been barely mentioned in someone life before (excluded tony of course,lol). I know people do notice me sometimes about how do i look or how well i am to be a proper role in one situation but to bring my name into their story, its like pheew...i feel amazing.
Knowing that my story could inspire someone or my attitude might bring some positive value to someone, what can i ask for more....
I was thinking a lot around couple months ago that for some reason my friends would start to forget about me. First thing, i live far away backhome.. second thing, i dont have blackberry therefore i am no longer existed in chatting kinda thing, plus recently my friends do not appear much in msn ... third thing, even my facebook has not much comments (with thousand friend list seems like nothing) and also i rarely update my status.. even worse, sometimes my messages got no reply, neither text message or facebook message. I dont get any contact as well with few best friends..
And that made me lil' upset...
I kept thinking what is wrong with people? do they forget me? or do i do something wrong??? why do they change? so on and so on and so on..
That was months ago...not now..
Cos i started to realize..heeeyyy...life is changing, life is moving forward and faster, so do we.. then i remember.. i am 26 now.. that means most of my friends are same age.. they are adult now, some of them get married already, some of them are pursuing their career, some are still studying higher degree, some are overseas, and some are still single but happy and enjoy their life...
My points are we are different now...our life is not the same like years ago when we were still young, when we didnt have much to worry about. Back then we only care of friends, society, hang out, existence, boyfriend or girlfriend.. we hang out a lot, contact a lot, did some fool things and that time friends are forever, friends are number one, friends are everything and only.....
But now look at me, look at us... we're growing into a better person and that need huge efforts, need time, need investment.. Friend is still important but the meaning of friendship grows differently.. and that what i realize and i learn...
i learn that seeing ur friend every single day doesnt mean they are ur best friend.. for example, u go to work everyday, meeting the same workmate, doent make u a very good friend. In fact, i find these days, catch up or contact with them once in a while bring me greater meaning.. in other words, i appreciate them more. a quality time we spend with them is more important now..
For your information, myself now only catch up with friend once in a while, since im married, i put my husband as priority, (I know it had been some extreme change cos i hang out a lot before)..
Consequently, I do try to understand the same situation as well.. i now keep thinking positive that people has their priority at the moment, why dont i just respect that and we can catch up when both of us have a free time... thats winning winning situation...
I learnt that no one can beat my old fella's... please dont assume it wrong...please dont think i am so old fashion person. I am very open minded person, i can always accept people no matter what they are. It just me and friendship itself. I learn that my old best friends are the best. They have been watching me since i was still selfish, kiddo, and childish to be a grown up me.. They will never judge me (sometimes the do, lol) and stab me. They will always be themself in front of me. and i always be the same ordinary awei in front of them. yes, we dont see each other everyday, but when we do, we make the most of it. we laugh, we share, we trust and we love each other. we bring back lots of story that no one has ever remembered.. and that what i love about old friend. a very good feeling..
as i meant above that we all have different priority now, i learn to respect what they are more. I learnt that the more we grow up, the more we respect each other. at least i find it right.. i dont sweat a small thing between friends anymore. yes sometimes i may be upset but try to think the other way around. I may not always give a present but i always do support them and always open my heart for them. Maybe they do not know that what i always expect from them, is just to be listened. I dont want fancy bday present, or treated like princess, all i want is their time and their heart. and i make sure i will give the same as well..
and last but not least..i just want to say this to all my friend who may or may not read this ...that i will be always the same old person u have known from the first time.. yes we maybe not see each other often, not contact oftenly but i do put u guys in the same spot i used to keep u guys, it wont change, will remain same and safely. I love u guys...and i wish u all the happinness, the best and i hope to see u guys very soon...^^ love u all...
