A letter for a friend

O jeez, its been a year and half i haven't visited my own blog. Yep, my own blog.

I wanted to go to park initially, but its raining right now... So here i am in front of my tablet, trying to type something.

Just a quick update, i am back in Sydney... Hell yeah i am in Sydney. ( and tony too of course). Perth is great but not quite a home yet to us. We decided to settle back here after taking 3 months work contract in canberra.

we still live in the same place, same neighbourhood and lucky me, i even get my previous job back ..

Me and tony are still enjoying travel, we just got return from our 4 weeks states trip. We are looking forward to our next holiday on April.

So what brought me here today?

I just went back from lunch with my friend from uni. We have been friend since first year of uni, in 2008. We catch up sometime after graduated once or twice a year. Sometimes we just message each other to see how things are going. We probably are not a close friend but we get along very well. We share same interest, same thinking and most importantly we are simply honest to each other.  You know sometime there is a kind of friendship for years or decade where during those time you are not totally honest to each other. It does happen to me. I am not saying we are faking our feeling. Not its not. Im talking about maybe there is one moment you just got lost during your conversation, or awkward moment or even you tend to lie a bit to your friend. Some of friend may go out with your other friend without telling you even-though you all are in a same group of friend.

I may not see her often or talk to her that much, but she is one kind of friend where i just can tell her anything without being embarrassed, simply just being myself. There is hardly an awkward gap between us, both of us just talk and talk. I believe you also have a kind of this friend.

She is a positive thinking person, probably she is the most positive person amongst my friend. 3 years ago she told me she has cancer. She went for surgery and chemo. I didn't have a chance to meet her after her chemo. Almost a year after she was recovering and we met up. she lost her weight and hairs, i was sad at that moment but then the feeling was gone, She did not show any signs of her sickness, she was cheerful, positive and happy. Then around 10 months after, her cancer was back, they found it during medical check up.  She had to go through chemo and all of those surgery. We then met up again early this year. Again, i was surprised how positive she was, we were still laughing over silly stuff, planning for our holiday trip kinda thing ( she started travel often once she was diagnosed). She said she is getting better but doctor said could not guarantee if the cancer will no longer come back.

Today we had lunch together, she told me she has booked usa trip for mid dec so we just talked about states and recommending her places to go and to do. I was happy for her upcoming trip but it does not last long. She then told me just a week ago they found the lump again. My heart sinked. She said she wont do any chemo,  its too painful and doesn't guarantee her cancer is gone. You should see how positive she is,  she is so brave and strong. I cant even dare to think further. My mind went blank. I felt like crying inside but i know i cant do that. She is so positive and i know she doesn't want people feel sorry for her. And that is what i adore from her the most. She is the bravest and strongest person i've ever known (beside my mum). I haven't heard her in front of me complaining or blaming God, or say silly things about die etc, you know stuff that people usually do in the movie. Not her, She likes to joke around, she like the idea of more trips to do.

She inspired me more to live to the fullest every single minute i have.  No regret

I just want to share this story with you. It reminds me again and again how good my life is. I have to be more grateful, think more positive, cherish every single moment i have with loved one, bring more happiness around and keep praying. No one knows what will happen tomorrow, cherish your life. Live healthy happy and positively.

I pray for a miracle happens and i pray that she can live happily as long as she could. My love and support is always with her.